Say What?

It's Monday, have I told you I hate Mondays? Yeah. Ahem, hate. This Monday is no better than the rest except I am up early and that always blows. It's the beginning of the week and I have a lot to do today so I figured I would get up early to get it all done. Did I mention I hate Mondays?

We had my husbands demon spawn youngest son with us this weekend. They put him on some new meds so it was a half way decent weekend. The kid cracks me up. I can say that now that he doesn't live with us anymore. Yes, there is a story there, a very  l o n g  story there but I hate Mondays so I don't have to go there. Why? cuz I say so. Usually, I am at my wits end when he leaves but this time I actually really enjoyed our time together. It's amazing to me what some well needed meds can do for a cracked out kid with ADHD. I lurvvvv we some meds! Webkinz boy was with his Dad this weekend so we had to drive to the mountain pass to meet up yesterday. We live in the valley and he lives almost three hours away where we used to live in the high desert. The mountain has had a lot of snow this last week and I don't do so well driving in the snow.

Let me rephrase that. I do not do well driving in it but I realllly do not do well with my husband driving in snow and ice. I have to have my happy pills to make it over the pass. I used to drive the pass by myself years ago when I was pregnant with Webkinz boy but back then, not only had I never wrecked my car on ice, but I also had me a Suburu station wagon with 4 wheel drive and studded tires. back then I was fearless. My car could go anywhere! I have driven through many of severe snow storms and never batted an eye. After I wrecked out Ford Expedition in town going 25 miles an hour, I no longer can drive in that shit without eating Xanax like candy.

Ode to Xanax, my happy pills.  Ahhhhhhhh...and the angels sing!

So anyway, we get to where we are meeting and as we are getting the Webkinz boys stuff out of the car my ex's fiance hands me the most beautiful Orchid plant with gorgeous purple blooms. My face lit up with pride and I thanked my son. *Insert Angels singing* He does think of me when he is at his Dads house.

But wait,

She looks at me and says, "oh those aren't from Webkinz boy, those are from me"!

Um, excuse me?

Now tell me why is she kissing up to me? I mean, come on ladies and gents, I am almost old enough to be her mother! I don't want her broken recovering shell of an old man! I got rid of him the day he told me to have an abortion!

Say what? You got them for me? Oh geez, thank you. I think.

yeah, I was a little weirded out by that but I do adore orchids, They are my favorite flowers.

So, we get into the car and my DH ( dick head dear husband) says what's with the flowers and WTF? Why is he trying to kiss your ass? He thought he gave them to me. LOL. No no no honey, she was the one. Her and all her 23 years on this earth. Doesn't surprise me that she is so young. The only POA he can find is from someone who is young and stupid. I was young and stupid once too...how do you think I got Webkinz boy? There was a time not that long ago that I thought he hung the moon. Little did I know he was a drug addict/alcoholic who liked to look at kiddy porn? I was that young and stupid girl. Thank GOD he told me to have an abortion. If he hadn't I would have stayed with him much longer and ruined even more of  my life. T H A N K  Y O U  G O D! When he asked me that, I knew. I saw the light.

I yard saled his shit that next day, seriously. Out the front door it all went. I kicked his muthafuckin'ass to the curb.

Oh and yes, I did say he liked kiddy porn. Sick man. Sick sick man. He now has a felony for getting caught with that shit. I wouldn't let Webkinz boy see him for a year. The only reason he gets to see him (this was his first unsupervised visit in 2 yrs) now is because he has been clean and sober for 2 years, has and continues to, pass a polygraph tests saying he hasn't looked at porn. He goes to like 10 NA/AA meetins a week, is in counseling, meets with his probation officer every week and I had to sign for him to see him. Any time he sees him I have to ok it and the Youngster ( her new name) has to be present at all times. In the two years since he got caught, he has never, not once, done anything wrong or broken any of his probation rules. I was NOT real keen on this but he has come a long way and he is changing. Webkinz boy loves his Daddy and I actually really like the Youngster, given her age and all.

Anywhooooooo,

In other news, we found out yesterday that this Wednesday is our last week of unemployment and neither of us have jobs. We have a place to live for the rest of this month but as soon as December 1st rolls around, we are out on our asses with no money to move anywhere else. Happy fucking Holidays huh?

Sigh.....

I hate my life sometimes. But, I do love me some coffee :) I am so thankful for my cup of shakes today!